2022

Today my brother sent a text sharing a video of the cats he is taking care of. It resonates the same sibling young relationship we have had. I was disappointed. He is not a kid anymore and that's not the text I am expecting from him. I expect a responsible text talking about his life, future, plans, PL or whatever and here I am getting a text about cats. I blocked him ONLY because I realized he has to change and that's only by cutting off this relationship dynamic where he is ALLOWED to be childish and irresponsible. The relationship between me and him is hte dominating relationship in his life and hte more I ALLOW it, the more toxic it gets.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1qk0lYdQXXA Teh more growth I have achieved was by cutting of negative relationships that had a negative dynamic, and through pain, rejection. I believe how much adversity can grow us so I am letting my brother feel the reality at least for once, now that he is 35 years old, so that he will feel the need to ...

Manhattan made me feel so special. That's after 2005 or so when I finally started telling my address loud again.It's childish, superficial but that's the truth. Having worked hard to earn what I have now is astonishing. It took me 6 years. Weekends. No social life. Hours at the library trying to get everything on my own. And made it bigger than most people in class. Taking care of my thoughts, myself is heling me. And it's important spend time on myself. I am also happy that I have left my brother alone. It's for his own good. He has to learn and grow. Treating him like to a kid is only going to destroy his life.

Moving to Manhattan gave me a new breath of life. It's beautiful and lovely. We got a beautiful apartment in a lovely neighborhood. Of course I am still adapting but so far it's been great