Morning

Complaining to the HR made it a mess for sure. And I am waiting until I get a job soon. This is not the best place to work at right now. THings got toxic after the complaint and the investigation. The HR obviously told everythign I told to my boss. I don't think it's safe to work here. Also I trusted Josh too much. He has no loyalty and sways base don what works for him. And he definitely uses his Chinese descedant for his advantage. It's a tough spot to be in. If I am not cooperating with the boss or not showing positivity, she takes it out on me in different ways. Also Josh is protected by my boss. He was, from day 1. Psychic readings are witchcraft. As much as it helps with my sudden anxiety, I need to stop it somehow. It doesn't help and it feels like someone else is controlling my life. Sometime back going to the office felt great. Now it feels like a prison I remember Wen saying that she would like to involve me in a proejct related to Ayman. And even though they said yes in front of Ayman, they later managed to not get me involved. There are unvocal cues. They don't want me there anymore. I keep applying for jobs but didn't get any yet. Sad about losing Disney. AT THIS time my best bet is to get to know people outside of my taem, get to know Mario more and work though

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