Morning

I am still waiting for my lawyer to get back on the AvePoint thing. She is slow and annoying. They have also hired the best attorneys. I just got well and I need to be a little easy on myself. It's been a 10 month of continued struggled and I have realized the need to have options when it comes to jobs and not to settle for the first job. Looking back, I miss Cirtec. It was slow, calm, peaceful, great environment, stable and was nice. Capital One was like whatever. THere was no career progression. THERE was racism but I was there just for the money and it helped. I have undervalued myself so much becasue I have been scared to make the jump. I could have easily ended up at Yale, could have easily oworked for Big4. Looking back. I feel regretful. Because I was scared to make the jump Biggest mistake I did was listneing to my unccle who often underestimated me. I don't blame him. I was never his type, that organized stragiht A kid. No. I am different. Of course there is a lot to learn/ Today I am feeling fed up. I woke up. Could not take meds because steve is asleep. And broke.lll Stocks are down. Fucking legal case with Avepoint. They truly believe they didn't fuck up. Let/s see

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