Court hearing data breach

Steve broke up, I failed CISSP. The only thing that went this week was the court hearing. Katy was persistent, aggressive and I loved her but I wish she was more experienced. She looked like a fresh graduate. I feel Yabing would have felt the same way with me. It's very important to act mature and to think about the appearance. Little things matter a lot. I had a bad dream last night. Some man was cornering me in a lift. Life without Steve is unimaginable. He has defined me in many ways and I have come to discover who I am. I love building a family with him but he is also this ultra perfect man who hates repetitive irritable behavior even if it's habitual. This is when I wish I had dated a Sri Lankan guy It's easy. Same values, same practices adn they stick around for the most part because they don't want to be embarrassed by the family for breaking up. Honestly, I don't like to date again.It's a lot of work and and risk as well. Steve is my person. He has been so genuine loving and caring NO MATTER WHAT. I love that about him. Also he is alot of work. He has been hurt that I neglected him and wanted to braek up. He is also very sensitive. His friends make it worse. I feel bad about hurting him. unknowingly. I am here in life thanks to him. We support each other a lot and it's SUPER hard to find SOMEONE SO GENUINE who really cares. I want to hold on to him but it's also hard. He wants to move back to MN. I hate MN. Literally can puke at hte thought of moving back here. Thi sis a dead city. Why would I leave my nice life in NYC? I just can't He is right. I should not take a lot on my plate. I have also been greedy about all the opportunities. Grabbing everything. Honestly on a positive note, I got thorugh 6 out of 8 domains in CISSP. NOw it's about keeping the momentum and prepping more. So that I can get CISSP certified soon this eyar. In 3 months. Another thing is Steve agreed to patch up. Give him time and let's see. I don't want to lose him either. He also acts like a kid sometimes. I am getting hungry. GOnna take a quick shower and then head to Moa to work on the rest of hte tasks.

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