Phases

Not everything in life has to be perfect. Once as a kid I dreamt of my parents living together and having our own little happy family. Then BOOM! Both parents just died and my brother and I were left alone in the world to defend ourselves. life is like that. It doesn't have to be perfect. Nothing is perefect and IT'S OK. Now I am 35. Just about to leave a 5 year relationship. Since no relationship ever worked out for me since 2012 now my plan is to pursue my dreams on my own. I am done trying my luck. For some people it's not meant to be and IT'S OK. I am planning on builidng my own little family. Two kids. Daughter and a son. Our cute little safe Manhattan apartment and countless trips to Sri Lanka where they can enjoy life in the highschool I attended. The boarding school was great and the teachers were ver loving. I am excited for them to enjoy it. I can already picture myself carrying a little baby girl.I want to work hard to make them happy. Get through the exams etc. I mean see, it took me so many attempts to finally get to "SOME" point in the corporate. Life is like that. It's not a straight line. For some people it is because they are very conscientious and are risk averse. My personality is a bit more spontaneous, I love to take risks at times and just drive through it based on my gut. It's going to be ok. Juat going to buckle up and ride through.

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