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My weekend was better. I enjoyed time alone. Went outside yesterday. Then did yoga at central park today. I didn't enjoy men checking me out. So stopped after 15 mins but still a beautiful day. Studied at a nice restaurant. The waitress was so nice. I could have made her my friend. Very genuine and loyal. I learned this is the best way to make friends. through real life experiences. It shows the reality of the people. I have realized what I want in life to be happy - true genuine loyal friends, not sanna, not kass, not Emily. None of them are nice people. They are selfish, competitive and are not givers. I don't like Steve coming home/ I felt so peaceful and happy without him. So anxious again he will start yelling. the truth is every relationship is nice at the beginning. Shit starts later on. Him not wanting kids is a deal breaker. I just want him out of my life right now. At least that's how I feel. I went to check this nice apartment today. I can see myself buying and living in it. But there is work to do than just buying. I need to improve my credit score and then get a lender pre approval. I could picture me living with my little baby girl at this apartment. It's heaven. :) It's too small though but I felt it was a nice fit for my current lifestyle. I can make it cute and pretty place to live in . I need a baby this year.

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