Update

What a rough weekend it was. Sanna got mad and unfriended me. Emily is not talking anymore. Steve is mad too. My uncle is no longer talking either. Relationships for this year are not for me. Deep in my heart I feel it's best to let Steve go. It's very painful. We built everything together. He is a very demanding person and I am rethinking everything. If I do half of the things I do for him for anotehr man, he would have married me and had kids and paid the rent. There are surgeons and physicians coming after me right now. I don't want to blow it up either. Why do I downplay myself? I don't have feelings for those men and for steve, it was this deep connection and trust. I trusted him from day 1. He is noble. But then again, it drains me so much to meet his needs. It's not like he is making it any easier. I have to do a full time job, do exams, save money for kids etc. and then do a lot for him be the perfect housewife. I can't. It's draining me. I also lost a friend

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