Update

I am trying to gather my thoughts together today morning. i think I have to live one more year in forest hills no matter how hard it is because it really did help me save a bunch. I can use that money as a downpayment for an apartmetn in Manhattan. on a positive note, my relationship with Steve is getting better. It was very difficult to leave him becasue of all the things he had done for me. It' s not easy to ooooooooleave him without guilt. I have made it this far in life thanks to his help. I also need to pay off my uncle's debt. Today I made a CISSP staudy plan so that's good. Going to meditate in a bit. withdraw cash to do laundry and then head for brunch, my prioritieas today are work and cissp. I like to do yoga at central park but the feeling that i have to prioritize my office work is making me feel guilty. I am very grateful to new york. I am also mad at my brother for alwasy begging me for things and money., I did a big misktake by lettign him depend on me at a young age. He is my older brother. hE NEVER grew up s a result. He needs to be treated like to a nromal person if i want ot see him grown, It's his own journey in life.