July 2023

July is almost coming to an end. Today was not a productive day. I slept the whole day. Could not get much done. Last night I slept because of my brother's drama. It's just so annoying talking with him. His life is always fucked according to him. There is no solution according to him and he hardly makes any effort to get out of it. Even when I try to help, he wastes all my money. I am just exhausted with him. You can't help him. He is living his life the way heh thinks is the best. He is going through his own journey. Just have to be patient and tolerant. Let him learn and I should just be a listener. I didn't go to any of the events I was planning on going to. Maybe my body needed a break. I slept for the whole day. I couldn't even study for hte CISSP. Also there is a lot of anxiety coming in from Dana's posts. She has just got the company certified against GDPR. Admit it though, that doesn't undo what happened. She fucked up big time. She didn't or does not know a dman thing about threat management and has very little technical knwoledge. Can't run a security department but she is definitely well versed in laws. It's impossible to run a company without the knowledge of the tehnicals. Anywyay, need to keep my arms crossed and wait. Yesterday was both an enlitening and an overwhelming experience. Matt is closing million dollar deals. It felt like a date. I felt awkward and happy and excited as if I was meeting a date. Not good because I have a boyfriend. Anyway have to use my brains before emotions. Everyone is after the money. Journalling makes me feel good. I have to go out and buy the spplies. then do the laundry, iron and vaccum the floor.

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