Update

My hormones are going crazy. About my brother, I don't know if it's my hormones or the normal behavior but I have been tagging HSBC and naming people in public a lot for the past few days. Finally it addressed the issue though. They granted him leave. I came to the understanding that at this time in life, my brother doesn't even know what is best for him. He has got so sucked into the system so bad, he doesn't know there is anything better. When he was planning on buying the bike I knew he is in a whole different socail segment. lt's kind of like Suvineetha nenda and my father's brother. They are in totally different social levels. I wonder if the same had happened to two siblings who grew up in the same circumstances in the same family. When I take my brother and I, it looks like we are from two different parents who grew up in totally different circumstances. For me, I have been industrial always. Goibg to Colombo uni was a lifechanging decision. It completely transformed my social status, network, resources and everything. Looking back, that was a life changer even though I did not realize it at the time. I know the lawyers, doctors, I talk well etc. etc. Not even CIMA could transform me that much. I badly want to join some groups and speak to someone. Also at the same time my Facebook is a mess, it is a reflectoin of my past, a set of bad circumstances and a result of that, a combination of a backbone-less brother and a toxic demanding woman, a result of living in a very rigid, socially judgemental, toxic, sexist, narrowminded country, I grew outspoken and abbrassive, aggressive as a result. That's the only way I learned to get thigns done in a country like that and to survive. It was always people trying to fuck me up and I had to be a bitch. Now it's different. It's a kinder place. I am thankful. Very thankful. I have slowed down. I don't want to open my Facebook or reconnect with my old friends (Hillwoodians) because it brings back who I was. Uni friends had evolved. They are successful, balanced. I can't really related a lot to the hillwoodians anymore because they are wild and I am trying to resort int a quieter life. I can't stand abuse. Didn't want my brother to work a single day because that means they know his weakness and they will keep giving him work). I was wondering if I would want to get back on Facebook. It looks crazy. Some have deactivated their accoutns. Knowing that, I think best is to deactivate FB. There are benefits as well such as what happened with HSBC Sri Lanka past week. I wanted to handle it differently. My brother should not have put me into that place in the first place. I understand his mindset. 12 yearss of slavery and you are never going to respect yourself. I am also worried that opening up my Facebook can create issues in my ongoing AvePoint case and my blossoming relationship at BMcD. My Facebook is my past. I never want to be that. I want to heal, be more private and be successful. It would have been easier if I had an attorney ready in Sri Lanka to handle this issue but not so easy to find one, at least I realized that after this event. It's crazy. Surival in Sri Lanka is this constant fight. you have ot be this aggressive bitch because I jsut don't have anyone standing up for me and helping me. In the US my life had been a lot nicer. ,my brother will heal as well, ultimately. Everyting will get better. Everthing will heal