Update

Getting involved in the entire Sri Lankan drama has been exhausted because my brother would not take any action, doesn't have hte courage and would not follow what I say. I don't even like to go down to the level of dealing with sri lankan people. It affects my image and my status. I like to help the poor but I don't want to deal with it in a way that it affects my status like what's happening now. They already walk up 5 ft high and I don't want to inflame it more. Dealing with my brother has been most exhausting. Liteally I wish he dies. I just can't help him. Every time I try to help him, he screws me over by taking the side of people who try to destroy him. Maybe he is possessed. I just don't know. I sense a lot of hostility from my current network on Facebook. 5 more days to go and I will be deactivating my Facebook to take legal action here in the US. I need to report this issue to the HSBC NYC so that I can protect myself if Sri Lankans sue me. One thing I learned here was boundaries. Can't rely on my brother. He is always going to be that asshole and idiot who does things and it also destroys me. Boundaries, knowing when to stop . I completely removed my brother out of my life and then I remember what my parents told I try to help him back.

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