H1b

After 6 years of struggle, my h1b got approved. I don't feel anything even though I should be jumping in joy. I am just indifferent, tired and I just don't care. Was the struggle worth it? No. It was such a stupid struggle. I could have used my 20s full of energy much more effectively but instead I spent hours and hours on exams. What a waste. I wanted to start a business, act, grow a base and try everything. Instead, I had to leave all my social media and focus 100% on immigration. I also found many short cuts to immigration such as the unskilled green card which is a lot more easier. Honestly, it was all so stupid. I am a grown woman in early 30s now. Time flies. Life doesn't feel the same way like it did during the 20s. However, I am doing great thankfully. I have a good job and I live in an affluent area in New York city. I could afford it all. I am studying for another exam just to make sure I have a firm ground. I have a genuine caring man even though the circumstances are not perfect. Life for sure is fucked up in a way. But I made it regardless. Next is to file for my GC. Work on my career and relationships at Justworks. Regardless get my CISSP somehow which will increase my income even more. I don't feel a thing because H1b took very long and I know I could have still got it while I was in SCSU. Lots of consultancies out there are sponsoring. I lost many of this valuable knowledge becasue I was only close to my uncle and only listened to him purely becasue he sponsored me. It's important to go beyond the cell always and look for new ways. test the potential.

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