Last night

I had many bad dreams last night.It's good though becuase it helps address unresolved tension. I am excited to meet with my therapist tomorrow. I haven't seen a therapist until I moved to the US where seeing a therapist became a normal activity. It helps talk things out, specially when you don't have parents. I have had a bloated tummy yesterday. Today I am slowly getting fine. I have been eating salad for the most of the week to lose weight and that could be a reason as well. I learned something yesterday. Not to be pressured to join Leila. she pressured me to join Irina when I didn't want to. But also it's nice being there for her while she is there for me. It helps to be honest.specially in a big city full of people and when many are looking for superficial chats and friendships, situationships. It helps. I also liked Irina (new girl) we met with yesetday even though Leila didn't like her. I felt Irina is fashion conscious, blunt, honest and nice. I didn't see any big red flags in her, not like Lilli the caribbean girl I met the other day who was so closed off and was super uncomfortable. I think part of life is understanding how to solve problems. Now with Yabing I have realized, it's extremely important to be proactive. Things keep getting worse if I don't take action. I also desperately need a vacation. The bad dreams are a sign of an unrest mind. It's been rough specially with Yabing, her style of leadership that's so messy with no accountability. At the same time this situation gives me confidence to speak up on AvePoint as well because I never lost anything by speaking up about Yabing. I am going to continue raise concerns.

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