Nightmares and dreams

I go to sleep after chanting piritha and meditating for a bit. Even then I would see things I don't like in my dreams. I think it's a way of expression, letting go, reminding that there are remains and unresolved isseues which I still need to go through and resolve. Interestingly I saw my first boyfriend in my dreams and it felt so real. When I woke up, I saw an email which I have not ready for years which is also related to him. His ex wife has emailed me and I saw it. So I responded back to Gihan and explained. After that I never saw him again. Sometiems I see Yabing in my dreams and I hate it. She is extremely a horrible person who has no concern about others and I don't want to work for her. Good thing is I am facing interviews and something will come my way. I have to keep applying for jobs. It's very important for meto crack my CISSP this year. That gives an additional layer of securtiy. I want to live in Manhattan. Not network with these "budding architects" or "wanna be entrepreneurs" but want to actually meet with the real millionaires in this city. Or even billionaires. That's why I am in Manhattan, to build the network. I don't think apps are the way. So have to think of more creative ways to build my network.

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