Morning

I am writing blog entries because it helps. Every morning and night I have to write so that I get less intense and can cope up with emotional situations better. I hate to go to work as usual. I hate Yabing. Hate how she abuses her power and doesn't involve the team in learning. She only cares about herself and it's horrible when you have a leader like that. Obviously she is backed by Legal so she has the power and it's always good to stay low key. I want to stay low-key until I switch teams so that I won't subject to attack by my boss. And happy to move Josh to the other team. He is envious. I took his position so always good to move him. In this work environment, I have to stay secure and calm and low key to survive. Until Yabing screws up. Then yes, I can come back up and talk. At some point she will screw up. For me now the priorities are green card, financials, building a family finally and just living a normal life. Finally have achieved some stability in life. I don't want to work for a shitty boss and not get my green card filed. I am particular about that. Need to keep the eyes on the goal. I am stil on the edge though. Need to play safe. Yabing can screw me over anytime. I also hate the morning meeting. But it's just 15 mins. And I am not okay with racial comments. I will take that stand regardless. I am not okay with being judged based on my apperance or the perceived age. My stand remains the same. Need to stay calm and cooperate until I get to switch to another team.

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