Morning

Today is going to be a critical day. I will be discussing about potential opportunities in other departments and my willingness to transfer. I hate to work with Yabing. I have decided, there is no way I am going to proceed with this psychopath. She is all about authority and less about getting work done and people psychology. I will not grow under her. I have realized it. Being taken the incidnet remediation away from me , it sucks. And also not gettin gcopied in meetings. I learned a lot from this job. IN a free time, I want to sit and replay all the scenarios in my head and think how I could have acted better. Definitely should have been more professional with Josh for sure.Shoudl not have listened to Roven when there was a complaint about me coming from somebody teling "not involving them". It was definitely JOsh. with time I realized that. On a positive note , this was a great experience. Just not being an emotional idiot. Learning the culture and learning to talk more like that Man, the past fucking 3-4 months were a disaster. I was a fucking wreck. Have realized how much I don't know and how much I need to reserach. None of the things HR said were true. Althea said the entire HR process is kept confidential. also said they directly work with my boss's boss. So many fucking lies. In the end Yabing knew I recorded her, all what I spoke about her EVEN DURING THE INVESTIGATION, and did all kinds of shit that damaged the relationship and made things fucking worse for me and SHE FUCKING WON in the end! Now who si the loser? Me. I am fuckign embarassed. Specially have to walk into office looking like a fucking failure, for speaking against my boss, "The God". I look aT Kadarshians in moments like these, to seek inspiration. They have been embarassed to death at times and they still act like nothing happened. And they survived in reality tv for over 10 years. Fucking legends. Gosh, I am embarassed to death and also feel like I let Beth down as well. And got played by Josh, Roven and HR. This sucks On a positive note, nobody can deny the evidence. I still have my evidence so I can still go to court. This is something I learned from AvePoint. Always have every goddamn thing in writing, record, and keep Also learned from Justworks and other experiences- NEVER COMPLAIN! Leave the company. Stay silent. No matter what, just fucking leave. Always be in good terms with everyone.

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