Morning

I get super mad with Josh. He is managing my direct report and Jian is starting to deprioritize thigns the way Josh did. But then again storytelling came stright from Yabing. So can't do anything about it. Main thing is to manage emotions. Things like this happens but have to take a step back and think more strategically about managing teh situation more diplomatically. Not let that affect me. In situations like this, I have to bring that up during 1-1. But then again in this situation, it was Yabing's direction so can't do anything about it. This is the thing about Yabing's management style. She puts direct reports, managers, consultants all into one basket and tries to manage. THen it all becomes a mess. Evidently. I am glad at least I have some hope on switchign to Divyesh's team even though I am not sure how things would go. I don't see a sustainable long term way Yabing's strategy can work. So best is to move to a different team. She is not good with people either. Jian and Josh feel powerless as they are bottom of the hierarchy and specially for Josh, the best he feels powerful is by leveraging his Chinese origin and bonding with Yabing. Thats a straetgy he is doing consciously or unconsciously. Anyway I have bigger thing sin life to focus on. I had the 5 am interview today and it was exhausting. But it went well. So now I have to get ready for the next round.

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