Suicide - Jayaweera

It was difficult hearing about Jayaweera's suicide.Taunting. I have spoken to him so many times and I still remember his quiet voice. He is very reserved. Only answers the question and that's it. I am very sad I couldn't help him and that's such a bad feeling I get. Inoka akki made it. Honestly it's Jayaweera who needed the money and little did I know. Anyway I feel I have to write this and finish because it keeps coming back into my mind how he killed himself and it's not easy. I am very sad. He was this very reserved person. Very quiet. My last memory with him was when I was traveling with him to Polonnaruwa in the bus, 4 hour long ride, bus was full. When I got a seat, I offered my seat to him instead of sitting because I saw his fatigue. He was a very silent person. He will never speak up or ask for anything unless offered. And thats the tough part isn't it. Because you never know what they are going through. I ma on period today as well so it';s been extra emotional. Here's the thing. I am living abroad. Little do I know about people unless they tell me what's going on. For example, I called my own aunt to help and she declined. I have done my part. I feel on Sundays, I really need to take time to look at relationships and help people in need. It's been a race. When one area in my life gets overwhelming, other areas suffer. I have to stop doing it and be rather balanced.

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