Tuesday

I have to understand the game and play carefully. Right now Yabing is in a victorious mode. She can do anything and she has only become more powerful. Offending her , challenging or speaking up agaisnt her can totally go against me. So the best is to stay silent but detached and also lessen the exposure to any adversity caused by her. I think I should go to public events with her so that people can see and she cant be a mean person. Not going also builds a strong defense. It shows something is wrong with her. Whatever it is, I have to think very carefully and act. Investigation taught me a lot of things. It's about how people perceive you in that very 20 minutes and not so much about what happened. Because these are all subjective human evaluations. Not quantifiable. You sit at a desk and talk about all the injustice you have faced. You can talk calmy or aggressively with sadness. The investigator (so called independent- what a joke!) listens to the calm one, even if they have committed murder. In every single minute, I have to be intentional and make it a thing for the rest of my life despite the situation I am in. Very important.

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