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Yesterday I got very negative. I saw how Yabing was working directly with my direct reports and it scared me again that she is looking to replace me.But so the HR is aware I am looking to switch teams adn she is aware as well. After the investigation, she told she is going to change her style of 1-1 etc. It was a good life lesson. Beth is distant as well. And to be honest, I am scared to get close to her knowing how anything could just backfire on both of us. My uncle got mad with me yesterday and hung up. Because I was negative. And he was very critical about me. I should not call him again to be honest. If he doesn't believe in me, why have him right? I mean, just check on him and help around but not make him my parent beacuse boundaries are important when he doesn't believe in me. It's not doing me any good. He is the one who called me saying he saw me in his dreams. I was being distant becasue it was not really helping me having him criticize me every time I call. He never believe I could achieve all of this to be honest. He thought that the best I could do is Capital One customer care. And he thought best for me is to live in that dead town st cloud. He never thought I will get my h1b. Honey, filing a complaint to the hr is not the best thing but at least now they can't fire me for sometime. And I am looking to switch departments. It's not at all so bad. This is a temporary phase until things get in order. I have to master staying calm. And have to get Josh out of my vicinity because he is negative and is also a distraction. Focus on what's important- Jian, Yabing. these two key staekholders. Let go. Isn't it so peaceful to just let go everything? I am feeling better after writing up. Last night i was struggling to sleep due to the anxiety and again used that toxic psychic app just to speak to someone to feel better. Maybe I should get betterhelp installed so that there is a therapist when I need.

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