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This year I am choosing to control negativity in me, negativity in others and take control of my life. Not let into others' agendas and ill intentions, fake intentions. there is just so much selfishness in these girls I meet and it's astonishing. It's also draining. I have gotta say no. I have to learn to say no without losing the friendship. When hanging out with these women, it's important to remember I am number 1 in life. Choose me first. Or else they will drag me down and drain me Today I am thankful that I got two movie roles (background roles) in 2 big Hollywood movies just by my first ever audition, I have a committed man who is most likely willing to have a family with me, affordable doctor set up for egg freezing, I have got a well off family in the USA whom I can call anytime and who check on me all the time, Anyhow, I am in control of myself. Not drinking. I really want to drop both Emily and Kass even though Emily is a slightly bit better.

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