Feb 2023

The past week was hectic and was horrible. I realized how important and valuable self knowledge is. Steve is spontaneous. I am more planned and routine basaed. Him moving out of random to a whole different area did not help me at all. Yet I made thorugh it and I deserve a reward. Steve gets mad when I don't align or try to argue. His intentions are good but I just didn't agree with his method at all. I clearly mentioned to him to move in a weekend. Anyway another thing is never explain to someone when they are in a bad mood or something. Let things calm down and then explain. I realized how chaotic and destructive my emotions are. I have to suppress them if they are negative emotions and understand them later and respond. Ask for time. Positive emotions are fine for the most part but still it's worth supppressing them. One of the value additiong incremental thing that happened in last week was the NFL interview. It was brutal but made it.

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