Update - Important- REad

The ongoing week has been tough. I sense that my team doesn't like me. I have a lot to do which I staill haven't thought of. For exampel traveling to sri lanka is a big one I need to accomplish. I need to work relentlessly this year. It's a rough year. One of hte most important things is focus. I believe that's going to considerably make my life better and help get rid of the big issues. I have been blogging here since I was a teeanger and it has helped me alo, especially in getting through the lonely nights and shitty days. There was a time I would go to the library and start writing up when feeling so overwhelmed. It helped a lot in gaining clarity in life and being focused. Bottling up didn't help me in life. I got depression for the first tiem in my life in 2013 was due to negligence of my own needs - physical, psychological and emotional needs yet prioritizing the needs of others. SELF first. Then others. You can't take care of others if you don't take care of yourself. It feels so good to see my brother is growing as a person FINALLY. This was a big problem I couldn't resolve and seeing him behave like a fucking irresponsible kid at the age of 37 without rising up to the occassion and thinking long term. I have been telling him over and over again to him for an unlimited number of times to do a degree. This was since 2010. He didn't give a damn. Now it's been 13 years. He is finally considering doing the SLIIT degree. I followed Steve's advice on handling my brother and it helped. That's the thing about Steve. He is great at establishing systems, processes, thinking about problems objectively and solving them/ Thats what I need for the corporate. I am goign to be very professional and deal with problems. Joe was coming at me and I am fucking clueless. Added to all the work stress, I am not talking with Steve. It's been over a week. Well played Steve. That's exactly what i need close to the exam and work stress, fights. Boundaries are very important. You tell them how you would like to be treated. Leave emotions out of work no matter how hard it is.

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