Update

Flying back to NY has been depressing. Steve is always being so angry mad and mean to me. He is my only friend in this big city and now I feel so lonely, alone and lost. Unfortunatley, I am not in touch with Emily anymore either. She was boss and draining and so full of herself. I just didn't want her around. I am looking for genuine connections and people who have their life together and are open to grow. I don't want to get overwhelmed by masculine strong energy in my life.. Staying home workign is extremely hard becasue in this small space we have, I have to share with Steve who detests my presence. I wish I can go somewhere for a couple of days but I can't think of anyone. I cacn fly back to MN but it will disrupt everything. The past week has been so hard. I have to start going to office from tomorrow. I signed up on a dating app but I am not interested. It's already draining me seeing all these men. I feel taking a break. I also don't have time left. I have to find a man and get settled.

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