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Feel like everything around me is changing. Job, relationship etc. When there are changes, I have to stay calm before I respond. Some changes can be positive, some can be negative. When I have anxiety, I crave someone to speak to. The therapist was all booked yesterday and this week. My only resort as usual was speaking to astrologers even though that's the worst route. These people just lie manipulate and make money off of you rather than trying to help. That same psychic I was going to for a long time, again tried to manipulate me yesterday to get me to spend more on her readings. I just quit. I know it all right now because I was going through all her messages inthe past years and realized she was just manipulating to keep me hooked. The more negative readings they give, the more you ask, the more you spend and she is well aware of it for sure. I stepped down and gave up. I have to find another therapist as a backup so on the days my therapist is busy, I can use the backup one. My brother is also being a spoiled kid as usual. I just told him off and cut him off. Honestly at this stage, I only care about myself. I am so done. So sad how things are falling apart again - I thought I found a great job but turned out I am workign with mean girls and a boss who doesn't care. He is a good kind boss but clearly he believes in those mean girls as he has worked with them for years. I need to show him proof at some point.

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