Update

Relationship issues, lack of sleep and I was caught off guarded yesterday at work. Felt vulnearble and bullied and I was least prepared for it. I took a deep breath. I am happy with the way I handled it. I was not trying to fight and was more trying to keep peace giving them the victory. The chances are now that they know my weakness, they are going to do it again. So I have to prep. Krista asked a question if I know stuff and obviously I don't know 100% because she has given me less exposure into the project and Joe doesn't get involved with the management. It's a mess. Joe listens to what Krista says. wHAT does Joe want? He wants to make it a successful project. What does Krista want? power. What does Christine want? Attention. What do I want? I just want to be retained. That's it. I don't want much. Play my cards in those lines. Build trust with Joe first. Communicate directly no matter what. Group chat is better. I felt Krista and Christine being teamed up against me. This is the second time it happened. I can have the most power if I am professional. Confidence is the only way to shut down a bully.

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