Check in

I am checking in with myself today. The past week was EXTREMELY hard. A new project, I got sick and then traveling to KC. Have to work on the research paper. It's a lot going on. I am gonna take a shower in a bit, grab medicine, eat and then head out to work. I can stay in better focus when I am outside. Also need to buy pizza for the office crew. The success right now lies in recovery, good spirits and positivity more than in anything. I am sick af. I don't want to travel to KC. But all flights are booked and plans are made. I told myself I won't show up unless I am in best spirits. I still feel feverish. I need to use this day to recover. Take a couple of more hours to feel strong. Yesterday I ate a lot so that I can gain strength for immunity. Now that I am panning on having kids, I can't bullshit anymore. Have to stay focused and grind. Of course, Steve takes the lead but I still want to be very sure of giving a good life for my kids. I don't see us living in St. Claire. Detroit could be a possibility but No, not st.claire. I would rather homeschool my kids. I wanna send my kids to a private school in Manhattan, get them exposed into the network. Your network is your networth. And the easiest way to build it is through childhood. I sold all my Tesla stocks. Feel great after doing it. Made $8000. That's way better than the last time. I started stock trading with 0 dollars and now at a $8000. My plan is to pay off the debt, keep Upstart just to rebuild my credit score. I need to save monney for a downpayment for a house/apt in NY. I don't even mind long island because the transportation system is great anyway. I just don't see myself livign in another state apart from NY. The most importatn thing in life is to remain calm. Strategieze and be intentional. Acting out of impulse often leads to issues and bigger problems. Calm is my biggest thing right now. Krista's issue could have been easily resolved if I had not talked to her directly. Learnings, stop it then and there but BE CALM. Express I dont feel comfortbale. Speak to the boss. I am going to take a break from the app. It's exhaustaing and getting no returns. Going to take a step back and get back to it later. Thought I FOUND A good guy when I met the Mora engineer but he isn't good. All of them are bullshitting and trying overcharge me. He is just an intern and quoting $35/hr. lol Paulo is also slacking off. Kushaal is the same. Not delivering up tot he expectations. I need to take a step back and get into a different project for now. Later when I return back, i will know what needs to happen but indulging in the same problem for months, using the same resources to solve the problem doesn't get me any results. Time to use a different approach.

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