Just got back

That's the thing about life. you climb up to to the top and all the people who matter to you the most are gone. Sumathipala, my parents, ammi who did so much for me, all are dead now. I walked to all 3 of my convocations alone to the point that I don't attend those anymore. I am not excited. I achieved the life I dreamed of at the age of 17 when my motehr died and felt lost in a very dark world of nothingness. I am yet to have kids and hopefully will be able to get pregnant this year. I am also glad to have switched jobs in last year because feel like Burns is more stable and solid compared to the chaos in tech startups. I will not work for small to medium sized tech companies in NYC. I want to try the Big4 next time. Will do 5 years at Burns adn then switch for a senior role. Honestly, I am embarrassed. I am 35 and ChatGPT CEO is 37. Life has a lot more to do with it. Grads has been a mess.

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