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Last night I saw Sumathipala in my dreams again. I was second thinking if I was treating him well. I remember giving him soemthign to eat and eating from it. Pretty messed up The tough part in life is battling the demons from the past. I treated him great. I still take care of his family. Seeing the loved ones in my dreams over and over again is very difficult becasue they have passed away. In dreams they are so real. I wonder if Sumathipala met my father and both are on the other side. It sucks. And in 20 mins I gotta go to work like nothing happened. I got 20 mins to get mentally prepared for work. Luckily I don't have a ton of meetings today and Joe seems fine overall, he cancelled the weekly sync. I am happy with Mike Welch. The past is gone. Mother, father, Sumathipala, aunts, best friends from school all that's gone. Clinging into those , trying to fix those, repair those relatioshiips, renew them etc. only bring pain. The past is gone. It's time to move on and live in the present.

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