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Yesterday was rough, overwhelming. I lost a promotion to a junior person in the team who I hated because of her cunning games. Then again I have to understand that she has somethign I didn't and that's how she got it. It's rough becasue it's a growth opportunity. Something within me has to grow. That's the ability to refrain and address issues strategically. Emotions don't help. I was about to braek up yesterday but my heart won't let me. I feel being played. Brought back memories of Sri Lankan guys on how they used to lie and play me. I think I got triggered and then Steve got triggered. We were almost about to braek up. So many things happened yesterday given it's just one day and a lot to take. What I could have done is be patient. About the interview, I could have rehearsed. Of course Joe favors Krista more. There is definitely that competitive advantage for her. I should not have applied for that role in the first place knowing Krista was also going to apply. I have to understand how to scan the environment more. Save my energy, prioritize and use my energy on things that matter. It's also very embrassing losing an opportunity for a much younger person who has no managerial experience. Then again that's Burns. Many interns got accelerated in their careers compared to direct hires and mid career recruits who would mostly leave or stay. At a bigger view, we are at a stage where we have hired a whole lot so there's definitely going to be a turn out. I liked Justworks but there is no work life balance. Switching jobs again sounds like a nightmare. Will stay here until I complete my CISSP and then apply for elsewhere.

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