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I hated these two weeks. Workplace has gotten so hard ot work at. Joe was horrible to me last week. Then this weekend I had to work because Eric miscommunicated. Project managment is a nightmare. It needs more structure. I attended STEM Kids NYC orientation session. It was good. Happy. I couldn't gt a lot done this week that I planned for MYSELF. I worked so much out of anxiety. Work has gotten so chaotic. I was planning on exercising this weekend, going to the library, having our chat about the startup, attending a meetup event to improve inmy communication and people skills and completing a timed CISSP exam. When I lose touch wtih CISSP, it's not easy to pick it. I hate how much my work interrupts. My anxiety has skyrocketed in the past week. Work had been so overwhelming. I asked Steve to marry me so that I don't have to work like this. I can quit the job and find a healthier job. But hey, new beginnings. I am moving to a new department, getting a new job and starting in the new job. I also have a great mentor at work. Need to send him a thank you card and possibly a gift./ I hate spending my valuable weekend on working. Wtf. people set the standard to work in weekends and now I have to do the same thing. Actually a good strategy for that is to complete the work during the week and inform about it only in the weekend so that it looks like I am working on weekends. Luckily I don't have any meetings tomorrow. I am thinking about working from home. I do have the meeting with Kamlesh tomorrow on teh research topic. I feel like I accomplished a lot this year. Three white papers, spoke at Auto- ISAC, Spoke at Cigre, Worked for a company for more than 11 months! Yay! Steve and I sorted out the future for us and decided to try having kids (This one took so many years and effort more than you can imagine! It's been a rollercoaster), I am yet to complete a cert. I failed CISSP so don't want to try again without really working hard. Well I did not mention the biggest thing. I saved 36k! Last year I saved none because of my big loan - 15k, $4000 apartment. Compared to 2020, this is a big deal. I also paid off all my debt this year. Oh wait I also got an advisory board member position at a non profit in Harlem, NYC. Stem KIDS NYC. I need to bank a cert this year before I close the year out. I would at least try CPP. I made friends with Chchsu. I could not explore NYC as much as I wanted to. Just been so tied to work. I wanted to go to all the meetup events, get a a feel of NYC. Of course Steve is not much into outdoors. I like Emily but she is the kind of girl who doesn't stick around much. She is a nice girl but I got exhausted by her. She has so much stuff going on. Next year I want to explore NYC more and really orient myself to become a New Yorker.

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